Here We Go Again...

It's been such a wild year since we last spoke... I recall telling you guys about how far I've come within the year, and how much fun I've had.

But what I didn't get to is, the details...

I spent the first half of 2023 traveling. From January to May, I was traveling with friends.. creating new memories with people that make the experience so much more worth it. I took my time to breathe, and really be in the moment to digest the time I was spending.

By the end of April, something life altering happened..... & there she was.

Unread apologetic messages from the love of my life.

I didn't know what to take from it at first. It threw me off completely, and from there everything was new with someone who was fairly familiar.

If I'm being honest, writing this is triggering in every way possible that I could think of.

But, nonetheless... she was my best friend. I wanted nothing to do with her, yet I wanted everything from her. I had no clue how to feel, I just knew that I waited two years for her to send those messages. Not having her in my life made me feel weak and impulsive. Like, I made decisions based off the damaged emotions that resulted from her.

After apologizing, she asked me to meet her in Puerto Rico. A place we were both our happiest every chance we get to go. It was one of my favorite holidays (which she was aware of), Cinco de Mayo. She asked if I wanted to celebrate in PR and talk some things through. What an emotional trip must I say... so you must know, I didn't say no. We decided to fix the things that went wrong between us & work through the damage and differences.

The woman who gave me everything and took it away with nothing left to give. The woman who showed me love up close and gave me what nobody else couldn't. The woman who asked me to marry her four years ago.. was back in my life after two long years of separation. No contact, no messages, no emails, no calls, no DM's.. no traces of her at all. Yet, she was back in my life like not a second passed.

We rekindled in April 2023, it is January 2024. What a hell of a ride it has been so far, and yes.. we're still repairing damages and figuring out our way. There's a lot of forgiveness and communication to be done & all of it is possible if we want it to be. All I knew was that I love this woman & she loves me.

So, here we go again....

PS: Welcome back to my blog. I missed you guys! <3